My Own Flame

Have you ever heard a few lyrics to a song, a line in a movie, or heard a few chords of music and it speaks to something so deep inside of you that you barely even knew it existed? That is what happens with me a lot of the time either because that is how God speaks to me or because I’m an artistic, creative person, probably both. The past few days have been no exception.

Without going into a lot of details God has really being doing something…..let’s say interesting….in me recently. I discovered a new worship album via an Instagram post from Carlos Whitaker over the weekend and it has absolutely blown me away, I highly recommend it. It’s by Will Reagan & United Pursuit, I had never heard of them before this but I’m so glad I found them. There is a song on the album called “Help Find My Own Flame” that has blown me away because it is exactly what my heart has been crying out for without me even knowing it. (Listen to it here on YouTube) Here are the lyrics:

I don’t want to ride on somebody else’s passion
I don’t want to find that I’m just dry bones
I want to burn with unquenchable fire
Deep down inside see it coming alive

Help me find my own flame
Help me find my own fire
I want the real thing
I want Your burning desire

Do what only You can do
In my heart tonight,

There’s no better time
There’s no better time
There’s no better time
There’s no better time

For so long when it has come to my relationship with Christ and trying to find out what my gifts are or what my calling is I have always been trying to ride the tailcoats of someone else’s passion, someone else’s heart. It may be their passion and heart and fire for God, but it hasn’t been my own. I need my OWN passion for God, my OWN fire in my belly for who God is and the plans that He has for me. Like the song says, I don’t want to find that I’m just dry bones because I’ve been spending my entire life piggy backing on someone else’s passion and desire for Christ and don’t have my own personal fire for Him.

So this song is my prayer for my life right now. I need my own personal fire in my life….an unquenchable, burning fire that can only come from God….I yearn for it, long for it, desire it with everything in my being. I want to know the things of God, I want to hear His voice, I want to know His heartbeat, I want to be everything He has designed me to be before he formed the earth.

I don’t know if this applies to you but this is my heart’s cry right now. Is there a song or a book or anything that God is using to speak into your life right now? What is He speaking to you? What are you going to do about it?