I’ve been going back and forth with myself with exactly how I was going to do this. How honest am I willing to be? How vulnerable am I going to be? What do I want to get out of this?
Well, here we go….
I know that I have shared some on here about my struggles with my weight, eating right, and being active. Growing up I was never really active – I didn’t play sports (not for lack of trying) and I pretty much stayed to myself reading books and writing. Not really activities that get you up and moving. My weight has always gone up and down throughout my life, peaking sometime after our youngest, Makenna, was born at around 230 lbs. Since then I have lost weight and haven’t really gained much past the 200 mark and have gone as low as 175.
My problem is I like food. No, I LOVE food with a passion. I love good food, great food, any food. I have a huge sweet tooth and will eat almost any dessert that is placed in front of my face. I am also an emotional eater. I will turn to a huge bowl of ice cream as medicine for stress, hurt feelings, depression, doubt, etc. If it’s an emotion, I can find a reason to justify eating food to coincide with it. I also eat out of boredom when I’m not hungry, just to have something to do.
When I first lost the majority of my weight about 4 years ago I discovered that I loved running. I took it up and went with it full force and ran my first half marathon that fall. Then I trained the next year for a half marathon again and during that time discovered all the running had caused a hairline fracture in one of my vertebrae and I had to ease up on the running. So I started gaining weight again, stopped going to the gym because I got bored and frustrated, and got back up to around 215 lbs.
Then around April of last year I started attending Weight Watchers meetings at my work. It really clicked and I started shedding weight again. I got down to a respectable 175 lbs and was almost to my goal weight. Then life got busy, it became harder to attend the meetings, I became tired and burnt out and started slacking again. And here I am today, gaining weight again, losing all the good eating habits I had formed, and become frustrated and irritated with myself for getting to this point again.
But I finally figured out what it was that I was missing, what was the factor that was causing me to get burnt out, bored, and frustrated with everything. Lack of community. I felt like I was doing this on my own, no accountability, no one at the gym with me to push me and make me go farther and harder, no one to ask if I’m eating the right things and watching what I’m shoving into my face. I discovered something I really thought clicked with what I was looking for, Crossfit. If you don’t know what this is I would suggest googling it and finding it, it’s much easier than me explaining it. But what a CrossFit box (gym) offers is smaller groups of people working out together (albeit hardcore working out) who encourage each other, push each other harder and farther, and keep each other accountable.
So I looked into it and it’s expensive and, honestly, scares the crap out of me a little bit – but I knew it was something I needed, at least the community aspect of it. However, around here anyway, there really isn’t anything that works with my crazy schedule that will start before 6 AM, so it’s still out of the picture for now.
But this is where the blog comes in: I am making my own community right here. I know that there are a lot of you that struggle with similar issues when it comes to weight, eating, and activity. I need you. I need you to push me, to challenge me, to hold me accountable, and, yes, to encourage me along the way. Here are a few things that I’m doing so that you know:
1. I’m now using My Fitness Pal app to log my daily food and activity log. I will also eventually purchase a Fitbit device or something similar to help me set goals and keep me off my rear and moving.
2. I’m going to keep cardio in my schedule at least 3 times a week – whether that’s the treadmill, elliptical, or a bike.
3. I’m going to start using an app again called Gorilla Workout to help me to do some of the workouts that are similar to CrossFit, using my own body weight, to do some strengthening. This is something I can do at the gym or at home.
4. I’m going to weight in on the scale at the gym every Friday and post my weight online as part of this weekly post. Hopefully it will be in the form of a picture – but depends on the day and how weird that looks in the gym locker room (ha!).
If you want to join me in this, fantastic, but I’m not asking you to do what I do or how I do it, but we can support each other and encourage one another along the way. Call me out, email me, tweet me, Facebook message me – I need you to do this.
This is a really long post, and the preceding weeks shouldn’t be like this, but I just wanted to lay out what I’m doing and hopefully you can help me reach my goals!
As stated, here’s my starting weight from today: